He enters a world where his senses of self,
otherness, and reality are blurred by the contemplation of internal,
ineffable spectacles. He recounts his trip. A roller coaster ride
where he loses his senses, of what is and what might be... He
drills into the auditory system. Penetrates the vestibular system
and gets lost in an unceasing serial commodification, an anabolic
self-replication of his dreamed predicament. A show based on his
inner self.
The receptors for both auditory and vestibular
systems are located in a convoluted chamber in the temporal bone.
His dwelling starts in chamber no.1 called the bony labyrinth...
Left of where he finds himself is a delicate continuous membrane,
suspended within the bony labyrinth, creating a second chamber
within the first. The membranous labyrinth. It's a deep and fluid-filled
structure. The entire structure has two membrane-covered outlets...
An air-filled round window and an oval window. He passes the first
and tries to enter the oval window which is covered by a plate
called the stapes.
The stapes echo the vibrations of beating
drums on the other side of the window. The membranous labyrinth
is bouncing up and down, the stapes shake, the cerebral fluid
sloshes back and forth, hammering against the round window in
a complementary rhythm. He looks at the window serving as a pressure
valve, bulging outward while the pressure is reaching a crescendo.
He tries to get away from where he's standing. He can't move.
He's stuck to the slime oozing under the stapes at the window.
The stapes cannot keep the pressure, the joints pop and the window
bursts open... The liquid tosses him of his feet, carries him
through the round window, into the vestibule... A large central
area within the inner section.
Covered in green moss, he tries to reach
for air. As the wave settles, he notices the walls of the vestibule
are covered with membranes, lots of them. Growing on top of the
other, morphing and multiplying in action. The whole thing looks
obscure and out of focus. Volcano spurts, lava rivers, exploding
green bulbs... He wants to get to the central chamber, where all
the organs branch off, the cochlea and the semicircular canals
are the ones he's able to spot. His eyes are burned by the jelly
that covered him. Where to go... There's only lines and lines.
A horizon, like a freeway, running right into him. His hands cannot
grasp anything. What he sees is a strange and untrustworthy blurry
mixture which seems rendered by a machine. By the type of smoothness
and the look of the faded colours in the texture, he's pretty
sure the chamber is nothing more than an illusion.
What is there to touch, to be sure of. His
eyes pulling a trick... But what is this all about? Try. There
must be a line to connect to... This is surely not the expected
route. It's real, no doubt. In the middle of the vestibule he
notices the contours of a pipe-like maze. He knows he's close
to the utricle and saccule. There. The utricle and saccule are
additional vestibular organs, adjacent to the vestibule. If he's
correct it's just a short stumble to the second chamber, the membranous
labyrinth. That chamber is filled with a special fluid called
endolymph. Endolymph is very similar to intracellular fluid: it
is high in potassium and low in sodium. The ionic composition
is necessary for vestibular and auditory cells to function optimally...
That's where he has to be. He might blend in with the other cells,
copy their structure and synthesise with the perilymph, which
is very much like normal cerebral spinal fluid.
The trip is coming to an abrupt realisation
of his cause; Although the cells are arranged in order along a
basilar membrane from high to low frequency, it's the properties
of the membrane and not the properties of the cells that set up
the gradient which caused the eruption. He has to discriminate
the different frequencies to actually survive. One part of the
cells can move and break the structure. They could push the membrane
up and down, amplify the vibrations, making the inner-cells more
or less responsive. It's all in when you push, like on a swing,
it could go higher or it could be pushed to a halt. If the outer
cells can move the basilar membrane, that could in turn move the
oval window. Subsequently the stapes... The whole process could
be reversed so he could be pushed outward.
His senses became a transport mechanism converting
the inside where he is in to the outside where he is not. Perception
is paradoxical... The perceived thing exists only in so far as
someone is able to perceive it. The innocent eye is blind. Mental
representations are reflections of an internal as well as external
reality. The receptacle and the spectacle. The vision and the
ultimately visual. What he knows is what he sees. It is what he
is.